#AOUGHHH MY HEART...

[lowcallyfruity]

Which trolls movie is your favorite

AOUGH THIS IS SO HARD……….

I think I have to say 3…. It’s really good…. But the first one is super duper close to being my favorite….. very good as well……

[broareweabouttoviberightnow]

ep four of the outsiders!!

uh. so. TW for groomin n assault. nothin like graphic. but this ep takes a fuckin HORRIBLE weird ass turn. so. do with that as you may.

again. I say it every time. but the intro FUCKS

STEVE EP?? OH?? IS IT?? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

OHHH STEVES FUCKIN SHREDIN!!

wait. oh no. ohhh no. I've been warned about this ep. oh no. I have a terrible feelin I'm gonna have to put some crazy warnings on this

ON THE ROAD JACK KEROAC MENTION!! I read that book once! God it was so so bad

awww soda havin darry n pony stand back to back to compare their heights aww

PUBERTY EP?? WHAT THE HELL!! oh no. oh wait. no. I have a bad feelin about this.

damn were back to blurry ass staticy ass episodes

AWW DARRY N PONY ARE GOIN FISHIN

aough. wait. are pony n cherry gonna go to the dance together??

MARCIA MENTION!!

STEVE N SODA N TWO IN A BAND??? MY SONS??? MY BABIES??? AOUGHHHH

BUCK IS GOIN FISHIN WITH PONY N DARRY??? I do not understand the nature of any of their relationships. also. hate this outfit for buck.

SCOUT N HER BIG LEATHER JACKET!!!!

scout mockin pony n cherry this is actually the funniest thing I've ever seen. I love those kids.

aoughhh darry n pony as BROTHERS!! THEY ARE SO IMPORTANT TO ME!!

I'm actually losin my mind at this Steve soda n two band plot line. this is the funniest thing I've ever seen

steve soda two trio actually somethin I didn't know I needed in my life I love them so so so much

pony KNOCKED out in the back of the truck aw my baby

apugh. ew. uh. not likin this. like. peep show goin on.

pony bein a giggly loser. aw. my baby.

oh. wait. uh. I do not like. the way this woman is talkin to Pony. she is grown. n he is. not. uh. well.

I love how the rest of the gang have just adopted scout. yeah. these are my buddies. n that's our kid. the fuck u gotta say about it.

steve bein SO adamant they know three songs. THREE. cool buddy! how long is the dance! 15 minutes!

BUCKS BEEN MARRIED 1 AND A 1/2 TIMES?? N HE RAN AWAY WITH A BLUES BAND??

buck sayin both him n Darry are waitin for the right woman. WRONG! darrys already found the right woman. n it is Timothy shepard.

hate hate hate the phrase break you're woman. please stop fuckin usin that. eough. guys. you're misogyny is showinnnn

RANDY MENTION!!!

aough. darry tellin pony to just lead with his heart. aough. my baby.

awww pony callin to talk to cherry. my baby. my son. I love that kid man.

dog. this woman's got to get AWAY from my fuckin son. I do NOT like her vibes.

DARRY READIN PONYS BOOK AOUGH. DARRY WHOS A READER IN MY HEARTTT

Dog. uh. how do I put this. um. darry sayin his first time was with. a 28 year old. woman. uh. he was assaulted man. uh. that's fuckin insane. they cannot play is off like that was ohh just a funny story.

steve soda n two comin out to cheer n clap for scout n her dancin awww

DOG. this WOMAN. needs to stay AWAY. from PONY. I fuckin HATE her energy.

DOG. DARRY N BUCK DITCHIN PONY? NOT my darry. he would NEVER leave pony with this LADY.

DOG. I do not like how they talk about. like. sex. this woman is literally preying on pony. this is like borderline assualt. actually no. not borderline. it IS.

Dog. someone please get pony away from this fuckin LADY. I do not fuckin LIKE her.

cherry looks BEAUTIFUL at this dance!! her DRESS! her HAIR! her NECKLACE! she GORGEOUS!

no. cherry is literally bein. manipulated. I hate this guy greg. n I hate this lady with Pony. dog. I do NOT. like where this is goin. for either of them.

'how old are you?' '15. how old are you?' 'how old do you want me to be?' oh. ok. so I'm watchin some kid gettin assaulted. that's cool. uh. ok. yeah. hate that shit. a lot.

ok. n now we're just back to Steve soda n two band again. Jesus christ. this episode is actually killin me.

Two bit can? canonically play the piano? why couldn't this whole ep have just been a band ep. without the groomin n shit.

two can fuckin SING man!! also aww scout n randy dancin. awww

oh fuck that. I ain't watchin that. Jesus christ. who the actual fuck cleared this shit. I hate that. I hate that alot.

TLDR: watch the first 10 minutes. then skip this ep. it actually made me so sick n uncomfortable.

[cuddly-asexual]

It's the middle of the night which means it's time for me to gush about the Fire Emblem Engage Fell Xenologue soundtrack.

I've very meh on the Engage soundtrack as a whole compared to other soundtracks in the series, but the tracks I do like are some of my favorites in the franchise. HOWEVER, literally the entire Fell Xenologue soundtrack is so fucking good.

First off, just from a general vibe standpoint I think it does a wonderful job at creating this very melancholic atmosphere that permeates this whole other world. There's also a distinct change in the instrumentation which differentiates this soundtrack from the rest of the Engage soundtrack.

Next, I just wanna talk about cool things I noticed in some of the tracks. Starting with the world map themes:

Both tracks start off very similar with the twinkling in the background and piano, but where Engage has a very consistent repeating phrase, the Xenologue has a more irregular thing going on where notes almost feel like they're missing or lagging playing on top of other notes. The both songs arrive at a transition (~0:30) where all the other instruments in the track come in. With Engage we have standard orchestral instruments like strings, winds, horns, etc, but for the Xenologue we get a sitar (something that sounds like one anyway) and another plucked string instrument that I can't quite place (I don't think it's a guitar because the timbre sounds different, but I could be wrong), with some electronic stuff in the background. After this transition both songs play their respective theme. In Engage's case it's a version of the main theme. In the Xenologue's case it's part of the Xenologue's theme. Then both tracks come back to a motif that is shared between them played with different instrumentation (Engage 1:24, Xenologue 1:22). At 2 minutes we get another melody change and this one is interesting, for Engage it's the main theme again, but for the Xenologue it's something else. I need to dive a little deeper for this one, but for now I can say that it's also a version of the main engage theme but likely reversed or otherwise changed in a way that makes it sound different.

Okay now I'd just like the shine some light on the Xenologue's main theme cuz holy shit it's gorgeous. I've been listening to this track on repeat since I beat the Xenologue earlier this year. I've been cracking my brain on this one for a while, but I think I can say for sure that it's not a version of the main engage theme. There's two main motifs that come up again and again. The first one right at the start (~0:07) and the second one at ~1:13, which is also in the world map theme above. I just aaaaaa idk what it is about this song but it pulls on my heart strings. I FEEL for Nel and Nil and their struggles as I listen to this song.

And the last track I will cover in this is the final boss theme from the Xenologue AND HOLY SHIT IF THIS ISN'T MY FAVORITE FIRE EMBLEM BOSS THEME FUCKING EVER. They squeezed not 1, not 2, not 3, BUT 4 THEMES IN THIS BAD BOY. We get this fun build up into the Fire Emblem series theme, much like the Engage final boss. Then, around 0:54 we get the fucking four hounds theme sprinkled in??? Y'all have no idea how much I POGGED when I heard that shit, especially with how they all join your team at that point AAAAAAA. THEN THE GRAND ENTRANCE FOR THE XENOLOGUE THEME AT 1:07, WHICH IS JUST AOUGHHH so tasty and beautifully arranged with the full orchestra. And of course we can't forget the Fire Emblem Engage theme sliding in there right behind the Xenologue theme at 2:06. Then back to the Xenologue theme once more with a small dash of vocals just for good measure. And then the masterpiece starts all over again. GOD, just the way this song is able to combine and overlay so many themes and motifs together in one song is amazing and I love this track SO MUCH.

Anyway please play the Fell Xenologue because all the music slaps. Thank you for reading my messy thoughts, I'm very passionate about this soundtrack.

[rhythmmortis]

imstill thinking. i want to know so much. Which is ur favorite trio. Ur favorite kh game. Favorite kh world. Whats ur favorite kh headcanon. Thoughts on axel

fave trio: this one is hard but im gonna have to go with wayfinder trio because aqua and terra my beloveds....... the autism duo........ (and also ventus is there and he's cool but i am more focused on aqua and terra because i have so many fucking thoughts about them. where did they come from. how long have they been training and how much do they know about keyblades and history since they were presumably studying. what specifically made them be chosen. i am so excited for their future in the series because AOUGHHH). since i think the series might be headed towards a shift in the 'light good darkness bad' mindset where light might serve as a slightly antagonistic role (what with the whole keykids fighting over light and whatever the fuck is up with MoM, also i think it would just be cool), i think aqua and terra and ven are kinda the perfect trio to explore that with. there's also them ACTUALLY dealing with the aftermath of bbs (since we never really got that!! and i wanna see how their dynamic actually is, how do they deal with the fallout of those events like terra killing eraqus, aqua not trusting ven, ven still technically being pure of heart?) and how aqua is gonna handle basically being the successor the eraqus (especially since aqua BECOMING a master and not terra was part of why shit fell apart. theres drama to be had (even though in bbs xehanort does call terra 'master terra', its just to trick him into trusting him more yes BUT xehanort is still a master. to our knowledge all it takes to name a master is another master seeing them pass some sort of arbitrary test and saying they are. yes xehanort is evil but he is still a master. making terra technically one too. and i wonder how he would feel about that title still, as its everything he wanted but thats how he got it)). i have so many thoughts on them all but it's very chaotic and disorganised so i will move on fkhfdkjh

fave kh game: bbs i love you so so so so much my beloved wonderful game!!! ive talked about this a bit before but bbs is very accessible for me to play since you can choose your own moves and commands so you have a good degree of customisation with how you play, you can choose if your finishers have QTEs (since my hands are kinda shit, i cant really do QTEs or input heavy things, so being able to choose if i want to or not is amazing), command board is actually quite fun and a fun way to level up commands without having to go into combat so you can take a break but still enjoy it, i enjoy the movement options and how varied they are between characters, and its easy to move between commands on the command deck (im looking at you ddd. why do i have to use the goddamn D-PAD). aside from actual gameplay, while the story is a bit clunky at times and theres DEFINITELY room for improvement, i still find it quite endearing and theres some REALLY fucking good moments in there i still think about so often. the fact that terra's final fight is a fight we as the player know he cant win but he fights regardless. and then sprouts a stupid little cape like its from a tissue dispenser for the sake of continuity. terra's voice genuinely cracking slightly when he's crying after he kills eraqus. aqua calling vanitas a freak. the extra chapters in the bbs novel that add so much depth to vanitas and ventus (which isnt in the game but its still so good regardless). the entirety of the secret chapter in aquas route. the vanitas remnant fight (you find what's left of this sad kid, beat him up, and steal his keyblade). good fucking game

fave kh world: for some goddamn reason this is also bbs worlds. what the fuck is wrong with me. it's either land of departure (which we literally know basically NOTHING about and i am so curious about it) or the realm of darkness SPECIFICALLY in the secret chapter.

(^one of many insane ramblings i sent to my friend after playing bbs again and again) when you first start the secret chapter, you're put in a place right after that scene on the bridge thing in the realm of darkness where aqua gets surrounded by the darksides. if you turn around, you can still see it slightly but you physically cannot go back. you can never go back. and being able to see it gives me this really weird feeling like im being watched or followed, and who's to say that she isn't!! the darkness is always lurking!! after that message i also mentioned that while enemies can drop potions and stuff, its never a guarantee and you are constantly fighting for even the smallest chance of surviving, if that can even be called surviving. your most valuable item that you have (if you have any left) are the ice creams that can trigger command style changes. disney world, the place you get them, is one of the brightest, happiest worlds, and once youre in the realm of darkness, you cannot get any more. you're essentially trading fleeting memories of a happier time as a desperate attempt to stay afloat (you can tell im a kh fan because im essentially thinking about A SECOND TRAGIC ICE CREAM). its a futile and tragic experience which, while 0.2 also has the realm of darkness, the secret episode has such a specific feeling to it i cannot stop thinking about

fave kh headcanon: this one is actually pretty hard because there's so many and i have been losing my mind over other things recently BUT. theres so many headcanons about physical appearance that i love (brown eyes for ALL please put those blue things away, freckles for sora, namine, terra, and a few others, XEMNAS WITH CURLY/WAVY HAIR which is from one panel in the days manga where he's just slightly distorted by water but like. its a good fucking idea, giving characters their normal skin tone back. im looking at you ssbu sora v kh1 sora. they took my boy's melanin (which isnt really a headcanon and more of a genuine anger at the whitewashing), scar headcanons for kairi and sora from where they died, etc). current favourite headcanon is either: aqua using more strategic fighting styles (with teleporation being a BIG part of her bbs moveset, like her unique teleport dodge, her ultimate finisher being teleport spike, and a unique command style being ghost drive) and that either playing into either her feeling detached from everything like a ghost (ghost drive) after being stuck in the realm of darkness for a decade or since these moves leave after images, maybe her developing a fear of isolation (or HERSELF especially given mirror aqua in 0.2), kairi also training with terra because i want her to fight like a fucking TANK instead of being more magic focused. i want her to kill (and if we get a rikai teamup, i think mage riku and tank kairi is such a fun idea), OR the current headcanon/connection of xion to the cavern of rememberance (i talked about it in the tags in this post), but i know theres so many ive had over the years that i genuinely cannot think of right now fkhfdkjh

thoughts on axel: the organisation's assassain. they chose HIM to be the babysitter. and then those kids said 'i could make him feel emotions after a decade of feeling detached from everything' and they did!! they gave him a heart!! but i LOVE thinking about axel during com and i think its the closest we'll probably see of his actual job as an assassain. he AIR FRIED A MAN (and i think in the manga he used his chakrams to physically attack instead). he 'betrayed' larxene and marluxia so easily. he wasn't afraid to go through namine to fight marluxia (that scene where marluxia uses her as a human shield, you can actually visibly see namine shaking in fear and rewatching some com scenes to get gif footage REALLY made me remember that its literally just Kingdom Hearts: Namine's No Good Very Bad Day) but he had NO hesitation. he ordered repliku to STRANGLE zexion. needless to say, this is all treated very casually for him that it makes me think what he mustve done during his time in the organisation to get the status as an assassain. he treats murder as an 'icky job', but on the flipside, when we see him actually care about something, it's just that same drive and motivation but used for his own personal goals (tracking down xion, following roxas in the kh2 prologue which is terrifying without context), but MAN. seeing him from a detached perspective without context is like 'holy shit this guy is scary' and then you play days or read the manga and anything else with him and you realise he's so sillies. wonderful guy 10/10

[hummingbird-hunter]

Finished trespasser yesterday (I've played inquisition before few years back but never finished) and now I'm,,, SO sad I miss my inky💔💔💔 and yeah they appear in veilguard but it's not the same😭😭 I started two new inquisition playthroughs one with human mage and another with a qunari mage (the latter one was my og character when I first played and I tried to recreate her from the few bad screenshots I had saved) (yeah I like mages. At first I wanted the human character to be rogue but then I found out there are unique conversation options for human mages specifically so I had to make him a mage). Anyways aoughhh I miss my main inky. Amaire Lavellan you will always be in my heart💔💔

[katkat030]

hey! I have a. fair few. I made a post about it (here!) but I’ll list some of my all time favourites here too!! :)

sorta goes without saying but these are on ao3, and I’ve included the tumblr urls of the authors if I know them

But oh, the bloom by sillyfairygarden <- sorry it’s not platonic but it is desertduo and aough it wouldn’t be me if I didn’t recommend this!! Staring at you with puppy eyes please go and read it. Just about anything written by sillyfairygarden is worth reading, but this has a special place in my heart for sure

you came at the brink of the end of by world by anonymous/louiessleeplessnights <- I’m not even exaggerating it’s about the sixth time I’m rereading this fic. I’ve genuinely downloaded it to read offline. I just love it. It’s desertduo as well, and angst and sadness and tragedy, amongst laughter. I think I fall in love with Boatem a little more every time I go to reread it. I can and would write an essay on why everyone should read it (although! Beware the explicit rating, that’s only relevant for the last 2 chapters of which there are over 20)

Bread and Butterflies by anonymous <- this was recommended by an incredible incredible author (whose desertduo fic I’ll also recommend because aoughhh) and I read it for the first time today! Tragic, desertduo, post 3rd life…. Yeahhhh I almost cried reading this. <3 definitely recommend

lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) by definitelynotshouting <- desertduo and Grian’s… let’s say mental state following the 3rd life and such, but made even more tragic. Like literally more tragic. Aough. Warning here that Grian is absolutely Going Through It and to heed the ao3 tags (eating disorders, suicide etc). The hunger au is brainrot for sure. The worldbuilding goes hard

someone already recommended you Redstone and Sculk by silverskye13 otherwise it’d probably be the first on my list, if you haven’t read it already please please consider it. Helsknight my beloved.

I know you wanted desertduo or helsmet and preferably fics (although. Although there is a fic in the works and I won’t be ready for how insane that’s going to make me when it’s finished. And uh. Ahem. Also technically a second fic which I may or may not be writing), buuuuuuuutttt

So so so so worth checking out the dbhc au by shepscapades here on tumblr. It’s brainrot to the absolute extreme, in the best way possible

here’s the link to the masterpost! I actually can’t stress how insanely cool it is (there’s angst there too so so much angst but hey get distracted by the really cool art)

enjoy :D

does anyone have any fic recs 🙏🙏

preferably anything [platonically] tragic desert duo [even better if its third life related] or helsmits because tjose are cool